mental foreplay

moving in flashes v3

i see you in random flashes

and i drink you in as a camera would

you move in slow motion and in my mind’s eye
i slowly piece together those countless photographs
that i have of you pinned to my corkboard head

i really see you in random flashes
you are moving away from me frame by frame and yet you fall
strangely tear-like through clenched fingers

i see my hand in random flashes reaching out for yours
weaving patterns in celluloid tapestry dancing
straining stretching grasping but most of all straining
reaching out for you

in this shot: your hand now suddenly in mine
and by the next: i know that you do not want to let go too
but in the end we all know you have to

the sun sets not because we want it to but because it has to

already i am missing you and you’re not even gone

jam (v1, 2002) (v3, 2010)

again

i have long forgotten about these feelings:

to be driven by someone else’s whims
to be swept here and there by her storms

and i remember in times like this:

i would long for her most
during those long moonless nights
i am without her

by morning, the leaves would have fallen into silence
despite the sweeping winds in my tired tired heart

jam 2007

just listen

sometimes i wish you would pay more attention to my favorite songs because the lyrics that they sing are the words i’m too scared to say.